Constant comparison of circumstance

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Yup that is what is left of my incredibly deep blog post.  It must be a sign that I was getting to personal or something... if you are interested in a bit of what my post was about (I won't be recreating it), it was based on a Relief Society lesson today that came from this General Conference Talk.  Yup I'm totally convinced I must have been spilling more than I should have... basically I realized two things about myself today:

1- Pride has many faces (envy being one of them I struggle with--even though I don't wish those I envy harm)

2- I am not proud in the sense that I think I'm better than others; but in general I am too proud to accept help feeling like I should just be able to do it on my own.  The evidence of the past year + indicates that fact clearly.

Anyhow, I'm not going to be more detailed than that for fear my post will disappear again.

New Beginnings

It's January.  Isn't this the time when we set lofty goals and strive for greatness?

I just have one...well only one goal that I want to share...  Simplify my life and home.

Paul and I have a small condo- 2bed/2bath and we have managed to fill it quite well.  With the shuffling of new items into our home lately, I feel like I can't escape the "STUFF."  So what have I attempted to do thus far in January 2011?  Well, not a whole lot of actual movement, but a lot of thinking and pondering on what to do.  So far I've  mostly moved things from room to room.  Why is it that I find such attachment to things?  I know that I was raised to find the value in things and to remember people, situations, circumstances or events with tangible evidence.  (This is partially why it is impossible for me to catch up on my scrapbooking as I have 9 ziploc bags representing the years post college and our wedding,..i need to ask myself...do I really need the receipt from the honeymoon stay?)  Who knows the rationale that envelopes my mind and makes purging difficult.

So, I have had practice in untying my memories from tangible items recently as it is nearly impossible to keep everything that holds meaning of some sort.  I have had spurts of success, followed by days of drudgery at sorting and getting rid of things.  Tell me, is it normal for me to have an entire walk in closet of clothes all to myself?  To have more than 40 pairs of shoes?  All of these are things I NEED to realize are not acceptable to the simple life I want to live.

So in an attempt to lengthen the number of moments of successful purging, I am going to put together some lists...room by room, and make an accounting of the necessary and unnecessary items.  Do you think Paul will go along with it?  (he whose shoe collection rivals mine)

I think we will start in the garage...but not when it is raining.  so not tonight.  Wish me luck.  maybe the bathroom would be the best place to start.